Wednesday, January 14, 2009

There are times I still wonder if this is surviveable...

This song. I loved it a few years ago and strangely haven't heard it in the last 3 years. It's probably a good thing because listening to it today I wasn't sure if the tears would ever end. January is a hard month and today I sit here and wonder if you really CAN survive losing a child. Can you? Am I? I don't know the answer to that.

If you've never heard this song listen to it. And if you have, listen to it again. Put yourself in the shoes of a mother missing her child and just listen.




"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still haveAll of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by
the life you left behind

Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

1 comment:

jay_say said...

That is such a beautiful song. I've been following your blog for some time. I cannot even imagine the pain that you deal with on a daily basis. I don't know if I would ever be able to find the strength that you have to still be able to get out of bed. I'm glad though that you are able to get your thoughts out through this blog. I'm always hear listening to you and will send support in any way I can.