I've just been so uninspired lately. It's sad really. I'm generally so passionate about things, about life and I'm just not these days. Maybe it's a combination of being busy, being slightly depressed, being sick to death of cold and snow........ I don't know. Maybe I've just lost the will to fight.
No, that's not it. I will never lose the will to stand up for what I beleive is right, sometimes though, I wonder if I'm just wasting my breath. I know I can't fix the world and I know that not everyone on this planet is going to think like me or see my point of view. But the way people live and act or lack thereof just isn't good enough.
I don't see myself as superior. Far from it as a matter of fact. I, at 31 years old, still have an enormous amount of learning to do about life. I am learning more every day and every little bit of information I receive is logged in a file in my brain to be sorted later. Maybe that's my problem lately, not enough sorting has been going on.
Monday was Alex's 2nd birthday. I failed at it. I had planned this whole thing, bringing helium balloons out to the cemetary and tying notes to the strings from the kids and Craig and I and letting them fly to heaven, much like we did at his funeral. When the day came to actually do it, however, I froze. The thought of going to the cemetary became overwhelming to me and I just couldn't make myself do it. What the hell my problem is I don't know. I haven't been there in like a year and a half........ A YEAR AND A HALF! Seriousely, what the hell is the matter with me?
If you have a smartass comment about it please keep it to yourself. If you have something constructive to say I welcome it.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Writers block
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
Slacker!
I know, I know. But I have an excuse. Craig's been off work for the past week on vacation so that leaves me little time for important things like blogging! I know you've missed my bitchy ass, sorry!
Let's see. Nate's birthday was this past sunday. He LOVED his cake.
(sorry for the sideways pic, it's 11pm i'm not fixing it)
Thursday, January 10, 2008
A lot of useless rambling
Sorry, no juicy gossip here. Just a lot of rambling nonsense.
Let's see. The past couple of weeks have been a crazy mess of everything and nothing at the same time. I took on a couple daycare kids and that's been quite a challenge. My quiet days are long gone! I have been watching a 2 year old from 6:30-8:30 am 3-4 days a week for a few months now and now I've added a 5 year old and a 7 month old. Jack and A go to school at noon so for half the day I just have the 2 babies. But wow. I have a WHOLE new appreciation for parents of twins! Sometimes it seems that Craig and I are outnumbered although we aren't. It's amazing to me that we can deal with all 6 of our kids no problem, but add someone else's to the mix and it's a wild crazy experience. We'll get use to it as time goes on I'm sure but for right now it's a challenge.
What else. Nate is turning 1 in a matter of days, can you beleive it? He's cutting his first tooth, one of his canine teeth (yeah, my kids are wierd like that!) and has mastered pulling up on furniture and cruising. It's only a matter of time til we see those first magical steps!
Hmmmm what else is new. I don't know if I updated you all on Christian's tests. The biopsies showed he has GERD so we've got him on prescription Prevacid for 3 months and then he sees the GI again to see if it's helped or not. Eh, don't know how I feel about it. It doesn't explain everything but if it can help him not hurt I'll take it.
I'll wrap up now I guess cause I'm tired and it's 10pm. Been a loooong day/week.
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