my fav is of you looking over him with that "mothering, I just birthed the most perfect thing in the world" look.
Alex was perfect, in his God given imperfect body. He was the baby you prayed for, even if what proceeded him was anguish.
A big piece of your heart is with him, and it his legacy that you continue.
One day...today's ache will seem like a dream. As you hold Alex in your arms and look in to his eyes, and hold him near, all the pain and loss you have suffered will dissolve in to yesterday.
It is hard to believe in a God that causes such unbearable pain, but to live without his light, is to live without the hope that we will all see the people we have lost in our lives.
I can't wait to show J that slide show, alex is such a big part of my life and I talk about him so frequently.
One day, while walking on the beach my 4 year old approached me and handed me a rock. "mommy, can you put this rock in your purse"? He asked. "No son," I said "rocks don't go in purses". "But mom!" He protested. "It's a miracle! And miracles can go in purses!". And he's right. Miracles can be found anywhere they please. My life is crazy and chaotic, and I've dealt with more heartache than most could bear, but I continue to find miracles in the strangest of places. Like the rock I carry in my purse.
This blog is my life, in print. The good, the bad, the ugly and the beauty of raising 6 kids and holding on to what's left of my sanity in the process.
1 comment:
That was beautiful.
my fav is of you looking over him with that "mothering, I just birthed the most perfect thing in the world" look.
Alex was perfect, in his God given imperfect body. He was the baby you prayed for, even if what proceeded him was anguish.
A big piece of your heart is with him, and it his legacy that you continue.
One day...today's ache will seem like a dream. As you hold Alex in your arms and look in to his eyes, and hold him near, all the pain and loss you have suffered will dissolve in to yesterday.
It is hard to believe in a God that causes such unbearable pain, but to live without his light, is to live without the hope that we will all see the people we have lost in our lives.
I can't wait to show J that slide show, alex is such a big part of my life and I talk about him so frequently.
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