Priceless

Trip to Walmart $10.00.....

Cool new Nerf dart gun $4.00

Finally being included in your older brothers' game....

PRICELESS!

Since when are Dachsunds herding dogs?!?!

Apparently no one told my weiner dog that she is not bred for herding cattle! She's very good at it too, running those cows from pasture to pasture while Craig yelled "Stop, you'll toughen the meat!"

My baby is six!

Saturday was Jacksen's 6th birthday. One of the benefits of me working is being able to buy birthday presents like this!

To the people in my life

A friend of mine did this on her myspace page and I decided that letting off some thoughts would be good for me. There are so many things in life you either don't get the chance to say to someone, or you hold back in saying for whatever reason. Anyone who says they say everything they feel to every person they know isn't telling the truth because if we said everything we felt to everyone, we'd likely not have many people in our lives. There are times we feel things that might be hurtful and angry and times we feel things that might be sappy and embarassing. So here are some of mine. There may be more than one thing about more than one person but please don't ask me what is about whom, that would defeat the purpose, doncha think?

~It's not as cute as you think it is, in fact it's quite annoying

~ You are an awesome parent, even if you do things a little differently than I do

~ I hate how you use people

~ I know you talk about me the second my back is turned, just like you do everyone else

~ I wish you could admit that you aren't ok with how things turned out, instead of always pretending you are. Although you try to act strong you could allow so many more people in to help if you'd just admit that it's not ok you were handed a bad hand

~ I am proud of how much you have accomplished at a young age but a bit jealous as well

~ It makes me crazy when you invent bad scenarios that don't have any reality to them, it makes me feel like you are making fun of my experience

~ Sometimes it scares me to see you turning into her

~ You have saved me these past couple of years and you don't even know it. You have given me purpose when I didn't think I had any, and made me feel like I'm valuable when I've been quite sure I'm not

~ I feel very fortunate to have you in my life and I'm not sure what I would do without you

~ Don't let him make you feel bad about who you are. You are a wonderful person and it's his faults that won't allow him to see that

~I wish you could slow down and enjoy life

~ I hate that you get everything handed to you and I have to work so hard for everything I've ever gotten. I hate that this has given you this huge sense of entitlement

~ You will never know how grateful I am for you

~ You can always make me laugh when I feel like crying

~ I sometimes think we are too alike for our own good

~ I worry about you the most

~ I honestly don't know why I continue to keep you in my life when you make me miserable

~ I am grateful that I know I have you to help me up if I fall on my butt, which I have so many times in my life

~ I wish you cared when it mattered. I hate knowing that I never got the chance




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You'd think I fell off the face of the earth!

Good lord I've never not blogged for over 2 weeks! What the heck! Thankfully my hours are coming down at work now that I'm almost done with training and I'll have more time to do other things. I'm just so tired at the end of the day that I can't possibly write anything that makes any sense.

Stay tuned by the end of this week for some fun photos. DH has been doing a great job at catching the kids in action on the camera while I've been away!

Finding our new routine

If you know Craig and I, You probably know that we thrive on routine. We get uncomfortable when our routines aren't followed. I think it's because there are so many people to schedule, if something gets off track it can derail the entire thing. We are so insanely routined that most of our friends think we are crazy. Bedtime is the same every night, as well as dinner.... even bathing is scheduled. I mean it's not like written in a daily agenda or anything but we've just found that keeping things to a normal helps everyone.

So this past week has been really trying for everyone. Especially Jacksen. Jacksen, having SID, MUST be kept on a routine. When he was a toddler we had to even have a picture calendar up demonstrating what would go on that day and on days that something new was happening we had to begin preparing him for it at least a day in advance or he would fall apart. This week has been such a struggle for him and he has been having a lot of temper tantrums and meltdowns and the resurfacing of some SID behaviors we haven't seen in years.

We are having a new issue with Austin involving a girl. Oy. I won't go into much detail lest a certain person in his life (who has actually been estranged for over a month now) be reading this and jump to conclusions and use a typical teenage ordeal against Austin. But it's been stressfull.

And then there's me. I'm very use to just being the person who runs this household. I have my systems, I have my ways. I have my bulletin boards and calendars and they help me keep the running of my home going. I am so involved in it that I rarely let anyone help me. I don't even let my husband wash clothes. But this week I've been forced to hand over half of the running of the house to him. I just can't work 40 hours a week learning very complicated work and then come home and do everything. It's been hard for me to admit this, very hard. But Craig has done well. Sure, there are some things out of place, there are some minor mix ups but things are getting done. Although I'm feeling very uncomfortable that I haven't handled everything I'm realizing that Craig is just as capable as I am and that by giving him the chance to prove it, I'm helping us all.

For the record, I won't stop pairing the kids' outfits up on the hangers.... he can't match an outfit to save his life.

I love my job but I'll be happy when my training is done and I go to my normal part time hours for a while. But I think it's gonna be ok with me working more regularly. Ok for all of us.

Whew! I'm beat

I started my new job this week, today was day 2. So far I love it. There's a LOT to learn and it's been really slow so I'm getting a chance to ask a lot of questions without being too much in the way but yet not learning as much as I might if it were busier and I could see it all in action. I was in Urgent care yesterday and ER today, I definitely like er better, it's just more interesting. Urgent care is basically snotty noses and skinned knees which is rather boring. Yesterday I got to watch and today I got to answer the phone and man the switchboard. I'm quite certain I sent at least half the calls to la-la land. Oops.

Tomorrow is orientation... for 8 hours. EIGHT HOURS. Apparently someone from like every department under the sun will be coming in to talk to us, about God knows what.

The kids are back to school. Tuesday for the older 2 and today for the little one's. So far they all seem to like their teachers and Hailey has joined cross country again. Austin is starting off on the right foot completing his first 2 homework assignments last night with a great attitude. Fingers crossed!

Anyway, things will be a bit quiet around here til I get through my training, I'm training 40+ hours a week so I just won't have much time to blog, sadly.